I Know You, I Knew You.

...and yet, it happens so often, we've all got a collection.

Let Love Grow...?

No.

Not this time because we're broken before we could even start, so this time no, this time no... but how to let go?

Look What Happens With A Love Like That..

Unconditional Love

Blinding.

Florence and the Machine
"Blinding"


"No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love...

No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world"


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdOVKKr1qSY

Flashback.

The drive to the hospital seemed so long but in reality it really wasn't, it was just the pain playing games with my mind. From where I was lying, all I could see was us driving past a blur of bright colors which danced in the darkness of the car. It was something pretty to look at, a small distraction. A small distraction from the world falling apart around me.. 

You know I love You So.

Yellow by Coldplay

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do. Yeah, they were all yellow. I came along, I wrote a song for you and all the things you do and it was called 'Yellow.' So then I took my time, Oh what a thing to've done and it was all yellow.

Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful, d'you know? You know I love you so, you know I love you so. I swam across, I jumped across for you. Oh what a thing to do, 'cause you were all yellow. I drew a line, I drew a line for you. Oh what a thing to do and it was all yellow

Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful, d'you know? For you I bleed myself dry, for you I bleed myself dry.

It's true. Look how they shine for you, look how they shine for you, look how they shine for..
Look how they shine for you, look how they shine for you, look how they shine..
Look at the stars, look how they shine for you, and all the things that you do..

This is one of the most beautiful songs ever written, and it is one of my favorites, for so many reasons. This song reminds me of a perfect night in 2007, with the perfect person. We were at my friend's for a house party, everybody was on a buzz, intoxicated with the liquor flowing through their body dancing around to the music blasting on the stereo. The night started off so hectic, but it ended so peacefully, so perfectly. I wouldn't change a thing about that night, it had it flaws, but that is exactly what made it as perfect as it was. The night ended with this song playing on repeat, we were alone in the room looking out the window into the darkness up at the star littered sky. All the noise from upstairs disappeared, and it was just us, alone together, with Yellow playing. We were in our own world, this beautiful place, just for us, and it just so happened that the word's of the song applied to us, how we felt for each other. So, we stayed up all night, in that messy room, with the smell of strawberry in the air, lying in the bed, enjoying the music and taking in every moment. It was the song we fell asleep too under the covers, our bodies intwined into each other's, with our hands laced, knowing that this night would never compare to another, nor would the love. It was magical, not in the fairy-tale sense, but the magic and beauty life offers you ever now and then. It was simple. I'm almost certain nobody else would call this a perfect night, there was no romantic setting, we were sleeping in my friend's brothers bed, there were drunk people knocking on the door and we recovering from the party as well, but it was euphoric. There is no other word to describe it.

Even now when I look back at that night, it makes me smile and it makes me laugh and given the chance to change it, I wouldn't because I didn't want what they show in the movies, I wanted reality for all that it was worth, and I got it and to me, it was perfect. A beautiful night with a beautiful person, what more could possibly you ask for? 

Every Lover

Keep Me

Don't you let me, let me go tonight, let me go ever. 

A friend may be waiting behind a stranger's face.

Maya Angelou

And that's what you came to be. You were the friend waiting behind a stranger's face. Overtime, you broke through all my wall's and I broke through your's to discover who you truly are, and that person is one I want to keep because you are wonderful. So don't push me away, don't distance yourself from me, because I want you here, so keep me.

Tis Better to Have Loved and Lost Than Never to Have Loved at All.

Sweet 16 and being in love. There is nothing more beautiful in this world, there is no feeling that can compare to your first love and there is nothing that can or will ever replace that person in your heart, no matter what happens.

I found this the other day cleaning my room, and it was like finding a long lost treasure. It brought back the most beautiful memories, the one's I cherish the most. I was able to re-live my first love all over again through a simple little piece of paper with a flower drawn on it. All the things I had pushed out of my mind, refused to think about, they all came back and it didn't hurt anymore, it just made me so incredibly happy and so thankful that I was able to have that experience with such an amazing person.

Somewhere in-between I got lost in all the pain, caught up in the hurt and tried to erase all of my memories, act as though it never happened because the end of that wonderful journey broke me, especially how it ended. I wish I could go back and change how my fairytale ended but things happen for a reason, and I realized that no matter what happened, it still is a fairy tale, it's my fairy tale and always will be.

Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Alfred Lord Tennyson

After that relationship ended, I read that quote above one night sitting alone in my bed listning to music. I'd heard it a million times before and always thought it to be true, but that night, no, I disagreed and continued too for a very long time. How could somebody say that? I fear getting hurt by somebody more than anything else, so it made no sense to me, at that point, I would have rather never have been in love and made all those beautiful memories only to have it fall apart and break and loose that person. Eventually though, I had to let go of the pain and the hurt - I knew I had to but I didn't know how, but it happened on its own, and one day I woke up and realized those words were true. 

It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved a all - I wouldn't trade those memories for the world, I loved every second of it, ever moment is one that I will cherish forever, every touch, every kiss, every fight, every smile... it'll be the best I ever had, it'll be the best anyone ever had because after all, it was your first love and as I said before, your first love is one that you can't forget no matter how hard you try and no matter what happens, how it started or how it ended or what happened in between - it will always hold a special place in your heart.

Change

Change…We don’t like it. We fear it but we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying, but here’s the truth: sometimes the more things change, the more they stay the same and sometimes, Oh sometimes, change is good. Sometimes change is everything.

Grey's Anatomy

I don't like change, I hate it and right now, everything is changing, so fast, and I can barley get a grip of reality - but then, I wake up some mornings not knowing what to expect at all, and the most beautiful of things fall in front of me, the change in my life that I didn't even know I was looking for but desperately needed. Sure, there are days things change for the worse but if you only ever focus on that, where will you end up? You need to accept that sometimes thing's might change for the worse, but there is usually a pretty good reason behind it, one that we'll never find out or fully understand, so we need to take what we have and move on, because if we never knew what it was like to have something to change for the worse in our lives how could we ever appreciate all the beautiful things that happen around us? The miraculous little changes that turn our world upside down and inside out for the better.

Go now, and LIVE.

 We're all scared but trying so, go now, and LIVE and keep LIVING.

You have what you have. Good and bad.

Agreed.