Tis Better to Have Loved and Lost Than Never to Have Loved at All.

Sweet 16 and being in love. There is nothing more beautiful in this world, there is no feeling that can compare to your first love and there is nothing that can or will ever replace that person in your heart, no matter what happens.

I found this the other day cleaning my room, and it was like finding a long lost treasure. It brought back the most beautiful memories, the one's I cherish the most. I was able to re-live my first love all over again through a simple little piece of paper with a flower drawn on it. All the things I had pushed out of my mind, refused to think about, they all came back and it didn't hurt anymore, it just made me so incredibly happy and so thankful that I was able to have that experience with such an amazing person.

Somewhere in-between I got lost in all the pain, caught up in the hurt and tried to erase all of my memories, act as though it never happened because the end of that wonderful journey broke me, especially how it ended. I wish I could go back and change how my fairytale ended but things happen for a reason, and I realized that no matter what happened, it still is a fairy tale, it's my fairy tale and always will be.

Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Alfred Lord Tennyson

After that relationship ended, I read that quote above one night sitting alone in my bed listning to music. I'd heard it a million times before and always thought it to be true, but that night, no, I disagreed and continued too for a very long time. How could somebody say that? I fear getting hurt by somebody more than anything else, so it made no sense to me, at that point, I would have rather never have been in love and made all those beautiful memories only to have it fall apart and break and loose that person. Eventually though, I had to let go of the pain and the hurt - I knew I had to but I didn't know how, but it happened on its own, and one day I woke up and realized those words were true. 

It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved a all - I wouldn't trade those memories for the world, I loved every second of it, ever moment is one that I will cherish forever, every touch, every kiss, every fight, every smile... it'll be the best I ever had, it'll be the best anyone ever had because after all, it was your first love and as I said before, your first love is one that you can't forget no matter how hard you try and no matter what happens, how it started or how it ended or what happened in between - it will always hold a special place in your heart.