Fading Memories..?

How is it possible to be experiencing such intense feelings, yet having the memories of those slowly fade away? I cannot seem to fathom how you can remember exactly how you felt in that moment but eventually the images of that memory fade - like a photo you put up on your wall. Over time, the colors fade, starts to blur, become less vivid. So, even if you can catch a moment in a photo, that fades too, everything in life eventually does.

What I have realized though is that you don't need the movie of the memory or the complete collection of images of it. If you can remember what you felt in that moment, that is all that matters. We live to feel, so as long as you can still remember how that moment made you feel, it's okay, you don't need anymore - you do not need to hold onto every tiny detail of it. Life is not a movie, so don't try to look back on your memories as if it were. We can't hold onto the memory of each and every one of our experiences. 

Just stop for a second, stop trying to re-live that moment through the images your eyes captured. Stop wasting time trying to put it all together to create that movie because you'll never get it entirely right. If you really want to re-live that moment, stop thinking and let your heart take over. Let yourself feel, and on its own, in due time, the true images of that moment that you are trying to recreate will come back to you with the images you are clinging onto so desperately. Of course, emotions make no sense what so ever so it is impossible to guarantee that is exactly what will happen, but I can guarantee your feelings alone will suffice, and compensate for everything because they are so intense and ever so deeply imbedded in you which will allow you to have that moment to be real, in a different way than you wanted, or imaged it to be - but it will be all yours. 

So, it's okay - you still have your memories. Some will be perfectly clear, others, they won't - but it doesn't matter if you can picture it perfectly in your mind when you close your eyes because your emotions are so much more powerful and they continue to linger on  long after the moment has passed. They essentially make memories what they are. We know not how to be numb and more often than not we wish we didn't have to feel in order to avoid all the pain but if this wish of ours did come true, we wouldn't get to feel any of the beauty either. So, this time your heart wins as it is the one thing that cannot fail you, and never will because it simply does not have the ability to. We need to feel to stay alive.